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I cant......

I'm really afraid to fall in love, scared to fall fast, because everytime I fall in love......it never seems to last. I can't give you my heart, because the last person I gave it to is still breaking it and won't give it back! Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny and can't move on even though you try really really hard?? What do I do when the only one who can make me stop crying is the one who made me cry?? But I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it is just a long long dream, and pretend he is not hurting me......I'm really really sorry to say this but......I        can't          love            you

                                                                

                                                                   ~ @nn@ ~

It's your choice...

Sure,

you can make your own decisions;

you can choose your circle of friends;

you can choose who you want to be with for the rest of your life;

you can choose your own clothes;

you can choose your own shoes;

you can choose......

But please think wisely before you choose. Will your decision hurt some other person's feelings? Will it cause grievous hurt to others? Is it the right choice? Are you doing it for the right cause?

Please think before you choose, it may cause great hurt to others, it may ruin your future.

"All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but his motives are weighed by the Lord." Proverbs 16:2

"A wicked man puts up a bold front, but an upright man gives thought to his ways." Proverbs 21:19

            

            "Do it all for the glory of God......"

so much for my happy ending...

I thought you were my soul mate, my other half, but...

You were the best thing that ever happened to me, I thought i had finally found my one true love, my prince charming, but...

You had the looks that would put even Brat Pitt to shame, but you never bragged about it; you stood up for me, but was never over protective; you let me bully u, but was never a pushover; you would scold me for judging unfairly, but was never mean; you always slipped me romantic notes - you made me feel secure, I was so sure that you were mine, until...

I heard about the rumour, about you and the other girl. I never believed them, until...

She was in your arms, chatting and giggling, I thought I was seeing things. I confronted you, ready to hear your explanation, but you just asked me to chill. I didn't believe what I saw, I knew it wasn't true, I thought we were going to get married, we were even voted "The Most Likely To Get Married Couple", i didn't believe it.

At last, I finally came to my senses, all this while you were pretending, I was your "Spare Tyre". I didn't need you to live, I will survive, you are not the only person I have!!

"All this while you were PRETENDING, so much for my happy ending..."

*this is fictional*

stress...

Haihz...the year end exams have arrived. After only one month of rest, need to buck up and stuff my head with infomations already!!

I told myself I am going to prepare well before hand for this exam, al least one month before the exam, but until now i only read a few subjects only. Aiyo, the television programs and the computer  are so hard to resist!!

Haihz...I better start studying already and hope that I have enough time to revise all my subjects. I won't be able to go online for a while. So bye everyone!!

the move...

On the 24th of December, year 2006, me and my family (except my elder sis) took a huge step --- moving to a totally unknown place, no friends, no relatives, literally. It has been 271 days since I moved to Penang and I miss the my friends, relatives, the shopping malls, the food, my house, my primary school, the roads (yes, you read it right) and every other thing in Selangor more and more each day.

On the 15th of September 2007, two men broke into my house. Luckily they stole only our cash and not our camera, computer, tv etc. But they stole my precious Parker pen!! It was a gift from an uncle from Subang Jaya and had the words " God's Fingers" carved on it!!

Sometimes, i feel like I'll never fit in. I feel like i'm on a long, really long vacation in Penang. When I go back to Subang, I feel like I have returned home. Haiz...will i ever fit in??

p/s: People, I'll reply your comments tomorrow. I promise.

==> @nn@ <==

~roCKOn~